Thanks to Strawberry Singh’s post about this wonderful documentary by Draxtor Despres I had decided to watch it today to check out what it was all about. Our Digital Selves is a full feature film by Draxtor Despres that is shown on his Youtube channel for free. The film is centered around thirteen people that he meets with different disabilities ranging from psychological to physical and how they live within the virtual world as well as Second Life. While I do not want to give away too much about it, in the film they go to the offices of High Fidelity as well as Linden Labs; who is also the team behind the Sansar platform.
I highly recommend you guys view it, it gives a lot of information and insight to different things!
Seeing as this is about disabilities and the virtual worlds, more so Second Life I wanted to take a moment to share some of my personal life with you guys. I was born to my mother on February 18th, 1996 as a dysmature child, now I always considered myself a premature baby, which I probably was at the same time but it was due to complications with my mother losing blood and them having to do an emergency c-section. Because of this all I had been diagnosed with a physical disability known as Hypotonia which is simply a muscle weakness, it was in my right leg. I started getting physical therapy when I was able to walk and I improved with every session to where it grew stronger.
If you know me in real life I tend to have a limp when I walk, although I am 4’8″ and on the heavyset side which could also be a factor, I still have the weakness in my right leg and will till I die. It doesn’t always effect me in bad ways, I can do activities anyone else can but at a slower pace, more so running.
Around the age of 15-16 is when I developed bad anxiety, it came out more during my Sophmore year of high school when I started having panic attacks about going to school, and each morning I’d break down crying and feeling terribly ill, the bus would have to leave and be on it’s way. Besides going to therapy for it plus my phobia of balloons and loud noises, I had to juggle with not being taken away from my parents due to my abscences. They decided, plus my parents that online schooling was best.
With my father getting worse and worse with his COPD and my mother and I being 24/7 nurses for him, I began to develop depression from everything, more so my from the life that I was living. It was from the age of 17-18 that I saw a new therapist that helped with my depression, anxiety, as well as my growing gender identity disorder, or at least that’s what it’s reffered to. Since my father passed in 2015 I been struggling with all three issues, though with medicine my depression lessened but my anxiety is still there, though less at times.
I want to thank everyone who made this film and Draxtor as well for shedding light. Besides that, all the people that blogged about this too which are listed below.